Psychiatric ramblings (lsd#2)

The problem of individuals with mental disorders, apart from various chemical reactions in their brains, that aren't quite classified yet and it is of an uknown what triggers them and therefore how to deal with them, is how those reactions affect an individual's thinking process.

There are 2 ways - a person continues spinning in circles of thoughts about events that traumatized them, thus continuously being fucked up or refuses to accept reality and creates a new one. The first kind of patients are usually hospitalized until the end of time, because they constantly experience seizures, anxiety, epilepsy and paranoia strikes. Depending on how bad/often those are, they might stay at home but almost always on medication and under somebody's supervision. It's hard for them to have healthy social lives.

The second kind, depending on what reality they have created and how they deal with it and are willing to cooperate with a psychiatrist, could actually be helped out. Hypnosis, analytical logical conversation sessions and some chemical substances that can help to turn 'the story' in their head another way around.

Of course most of the time our great 'modern psychiatry' prefers just to lock those people in a hospital (=jail ) and feed them hypnotics or tranquilizers, thus destroying them irreversibly, but we are talking about cases when a doctor actually does want to help

So imagine, you are married, your spouse tells you there is an insect, living in their brain, that pulls their wires. Eventually your spouse kills all of your 3 kids. You come home, find all of them dead and in a state of shock kill your spouse. (yes, Shutter Island, it's a good example, although extreme). You loved your kids, you loved your life partner and you feel guilty for letting your kids die, for killing somebody you dearly loved, on another hand you hate a person that killed your children. The problem of western intellect is that it needs to make sense out of everything and determine attitude, whereas let's say a buddhist monk celebrates collapse of his mind and is considered to be an enlightened one if he continues functioning 'properly' in a state where nothing makes sense to him, his attitude towards everyone and everything is the same. In western world of structured minds we call it madness, because when nothing makes sense to a western person they might just start killing everyone, or committing other idiotic actions, because the way they act is based on their moral grounds and not on necessity of an action at a moment in time. And their moral grounds are based on whatever bullshit they experience in their life: posting on the internet, taking LSD, parents divorce etc, thus making it easy to shape a western person's mind in any way you want.

So, how would you make sense out of that situation, how can you live with what's happened? unless you are an enlightened buddhist monk who doesn't give a shit, you either kill yourself, or go through 20 years of nervous breakdown, shock, depression and then still emotionally devastated may be you can make something out of the rest of your life, OR

your brain creates another story where it is neither yours nor your spouse's fault, but it must be somebody's fault though or it doesn't make sense. So your brain invents a person (or creature, or an event) to blame it on, by changing connections and associations between people and events, it might even change your entire life-story in your head, keeping all the events and people in it, just reconsidering your attitude to them, their role, value and time when they happened. you can make a person kill their own mother if you change their attitude towards her in their head and there are ways to do it. so, answering the question how one can lead the show when stepping into insanity. The difference between sane and insane person is that the former one, experiences temporary mental disorder in a form of depression, nervous breakdown, anxiety seizures and moves on. Whereas insane person keeps spinning in circles, trying to make sense out of what's happened, thus re-experiencing old events, creating fake ones and traumatizing themselves up to an extent where they might start using their defense mechanisms against aggressive little evil trolls, who in somebody else's reality are their children, thus becoming a danger to society

. What a doctor does is trying to help a patient to understand that they live in an 'unhealthy' reality, eventhough that reality makes perfect sense to them and they can explain and prove every single aspect of it. A patient has to handle a battle with his own ego, where his ego state suggests he knows what's going on and others just try to play him around. If he achieves that, trusts his doctor and gives up on his ego, the doctor may find a way to create a story or find a way to explain things that would lead his patient back to 'healthy' reality, where he can continue his life as a 'properly functioning' individual (or completely fuck him up, if he's a bad doctor). But it's the patient that chooses, get it, grasshopper?

so, you can continue sitting on your plane, that is about to crash and wait to see what happens, if you believe this is reality and there is nothing you can do, or you can get up and look for parachute or jump off and end up in an ocean on a floating piece of wood or even wake up and realize you were having a nightmare, or you just die and the rest of the plane passengers land safely, but you won't care anymore, because you are dead and that is nolonger your reality. None of the above is right or wrong, it's just what you choose to choose.

So when you're tripping and it's fun -awesome. But if it is not, instead of thinking you are in a different shamanic state of consciousness that scares the shit out of you, just explain to your poor brain that you, for some uknown reasons that you call fun, performed a chemical reaction in your brain, that caused this temporary mental disorder to you, so what you can do is stay away from anything that enhances it and wait until it is over, trying to make fun out of it. Or just sit there and let it drive you nuts, which can actually cause a serious psycho trauma, which stays in your subconscious and might occur later in your life under some shitty circumstances and turn you into lobotomy material.